Morning

Last night Dork Boy and I had a serious discussion about his serious lying. The trust factor has been compromised and just when I think everything is better, I find out something else he is currently hiding from me.

I am not talking hiding the fact that he forgot to pay a bill or tell me about a phone message. I was paying my bills and found his Sprint Cell phone bill, which I thought was my bill. Instead I found lots of phone calls made during business hours to lots of different women through out the U.S. Since this isn't my first discovery of his bad behavior, I no longer react by being sick to my stomach but rather getting furious that he was hiding this from me.

I always confront him. He always apologizes. The problem is that there is an "ALWAYS" involved. This is not normal. I am tired of his lies and bad behavior. Have I become so immune or accustomed to this that I think this is a normal part of any relationship? If any of my friends told me that their Dork Boy was doing this (and many other things that he has done) I would say they were insane to stay. I am not perfect, but I am honest. I expect honesty always.

Any way, last night our conversation ended with him saying that even if he went to a counselor (something he always says he'll do), nothing will change. I woke up being mad at him. I know going once to a counselor is not a magic cure BUT at least it is a step in the right direction. A step to living a normal life. Dork Boy has more issues to deal with than God (that is what he tells me) and his problem is he never wants to deal with anything. We all have issues, we all have to work through them or else you succumb to them and lead a miserable life. We have a choice. I choose happiness.

I confronted Dork Boy this morning since I hate going to work angry, which in turns makes me unproductive and cranky. It has taken me close to 34 years to figure out if I talk about my problems, then I feel better. We had a good talk and he said he understood what I was saying.

My patience for the boy is wearing very thin. I really am tired of dealing with all of the always.